Looking for God

What if you lived life looking for God in each moment? ….That question/challened has been presented to me in different ways several times in the past two weeks. First, in reading Dying to Lead, next, in a Bibile study that is focused on that thought, and then on the radio.  Each time I heard it it has stopped me to think, what would life be like? And, the thing is, I can’t even fathom that.  What would it look like to look for God in every mundane minute, each exciting moment, in joy, in heartbreak….I have no idea. It’s easy to see God in the extremes….when the only thing that can keep you afloat is too look to God and look for where God is in the disaster….but then there are the times when you feel lost and can’t find Him when you need Him most.  This is where I am at….needing God more than ever….yet, because He is not right there in front of me or holding me up I think that He is not there at all. But maybe…it’s not that He is not there, I am just not looking hard enough. Maybe God is there so much more than we think and we don’t see Him because we don’t look.   So maybe I need to really take that challenge, LOOK for God in every moment.  I wonder how it would change each day, how much more joy I would feel…

On another thought…I was driving home tonight and thinking and the blessings in my life, and how everything falls into place in ways you never expect it and it’s usually better than you could have imagined it.  I have a family that loves me, am surrounded by friends that are better friends than I could ever ask for….who in the past couple weeks have kept me going and are teaching me what it looks like to love unconditionally and how to walk beside those you love, I seriously do not know what I would do without them and just pray that someday I can be as wonderful as they have been to me. …and I have a job that I love with coworkers that I am learning so much from and are an absolute joy.  I am blessed.

Life is differerent than I would have ever expected it to be….and while I am struggling with the transition from what I have known for the past 19 years into the unknown…I feel completely unsettled, lost, and unsure, and at the same time I am excited,  know that this is EXACTLY where I am suppose to be and NEED to be…and am more blessed than I could have ever imagined.

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