Nobody likes you when you’re (23)

Today is one of those days where my life could be a musical, you could play certain songs in the background of today’s happenings and it would fit. You could sell it on broadway and it would do well, I am not sure if you would call it a tragedy, a comedy, or a mess. But, whatever it is, it would be worth the price to watch it. I guarantee it.

Blink 182:

Nobody likes you when you’re 23
No one should take themselves so seriously

What’s my age again?
What’s my age again?

It is true. I am quite possibly at one of the most awkward ages. It’s not really the age itself, just the quirky little space I find myself in while I am this age. Adding to the quirky space, I am 23, but with an odd twist of spending 20 of those 23 years in the sheltered gymnastics world…so who knows how old I really am. I am best friends with people younger than me, which has pretty much always been the case, and at the same time have many friends that are several years older than me, and more so, many phases of life ahead of me. So, let me give you a layout of this…

best friends-undergrads at SPU
(Brie)
friends that are married or getting married
friends wanting to have kids
friends with kids
friends with entire families

you see, I am stuck in the middle…and it’s just awkward. But, about halfway through my pout about this I realized it’s a blessing. How wonderful it is to have so many friends in different phases of life! I wouldn’t trade it, I would just like a few people to be in the ( ) with me. As a result, I know a great deal about marriage, pregnancy, the complications that come along with both, and far too much about breastfeeding.
…now if there is anyone else that falls into the ( ) that could tell me what the heck I am suppose to be doing during my time in the ( ) we could become friends.

…and here is the scary part of this story. I am processing through my day, (still in my pout) and debating if I am lame because I am in the() , I was starting to feel a little excited about the that I find myself in…until….. “The Anthem” by Good Charolette….

This is the anthem, throw all your hands up
y’ll got the feeling, sing if your with me
Another Loser anthem, oh oh, Another Loser Anthem.

Are you kidding me??????…so now, my thoughts have gone crazy….

so, I am about 3 miles into my workout and am now back and forth between, I am cool because I live inside the brackets or I am a Loser. I decide to take the IPOD of shuffle and put it to McFly…who’s songs make me laugh b/c my friends and I like to dance ridiculously to them.

here is the first song that comes on:

You and I have got a lot in common
We share all the same problems
Luck, Love and life aren’t on our side

Just my luck
Just my luck
Just my luck now
Yeah you know its just my luck

so, I actually really love this song, it’s fun..but I start to think “you and I have got a lot in common’” ..you and I????? remember the lineup I gave….with me in the ( )?

…so now I am geting really pathetic right? I have taken this 23 bracket thing far out of control and run with it. (but what else do you do when you are working out, right?)

so, the best part is the last song that comes on by Relient K “I’m a little than Useless” and I realize that even if I am at the awkard () and am not sure where I belong or what I am doing, I am reminded in small ways (like this song coming on my IPOD) that I have a purpose and a place where I will be used, even if it is inside the ( ).

And sometimes I think that I’m not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I’m even here at all
But then you assure me I’m a little more than useless
And when I think that I can’t do this
You promise me that I’ll get through this

…so now, the curtain goes down, my Monday musical ends. Yes, slightly dramaticized for your reading enjoyment, but if it wasn’t, it wouldn’t have been all that entertaining to read.

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